My Beautiful Husband Carlos Batts

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I have lost my best friend and love of my life…. I have no words…. I can not believe that my worst fear has become a reality. I am beyond devastated…

Through these past few days, I have been going through a roller coaster of emotions, trying to do my best not to fall apart. The only thing that has kept me going is the love my family and friends. I want to thank everyone for sending their love and support through this nightmare that is happening. I am taking it day by day, minute by minute, second by second. I have been surrounded by loved ones who have been my guidance and strength when I break down. I have received your messages and texts, and filled up on the support that you have all been expressing and sending my way. I apologize for not getting back to everyone, but please know that it means so much. I will be needing you all for a long time.

I and am only now coming back online, seeing all the love that is being expressed for Carlos. Reading all of your tributes is moving and I know that Carlos was a positive part of everyone’s life he entered. I feel so fortunate to have been one of the lucky ones who’s life he touched and made much better for having had known him.
I can’t believe that I will have to go the rest of my life with out my partner in everything, but you have all shown me that the best way to honor his memory is to be strong and remember the art, beauty and love that he had within and only wanted to share.
My life with Carlos was a dream come true, he was my Prince Charming. My inspiration, my world, my guardian. Rest In Peace my Beauty.

Funeral & Donation information can be found here. Any amount is greatly appreciated.

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Illustration by Mike Malbrough, a friend of Carlos who went to High School with him.

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  1. Beth Cori says:

    Lillian,

    Words cannot express how deeply saddened to hear about your tremendous loss. I am absolutely devestated for you and your family. My heart goes out to each and everyone of you.

    With love and sympathy,

    Beth (Static Beth)

  2. Aurora Skywalker says:

    Im not even sure if you will see this or not but here goes nothing;

    I first heard of you a few months back. You were published in Bizarre Magazine in an article about you and Carlos. I read it and I fell in love with both of you because you both were so beautiful, inside and out. I could feel it in your art. I followed you everywhere, I just couldnt get enough. And I too have felt what the two of you had, before. But on October 16th 2012 my soul mate passed away in a car accident. My world was shattered and I have still yet to find any kind of relief a year later. No words can describe what I am going though, what you are going through, what many many other people have to go through.
    And no one in this world could possibly say anything ever that will make anything even remotely feel better. Ever.

    But thats okay because soul mates never leave each other, not even in death.

  3. Alison says:

    I am so so sorry to hear such sad news of your loss. Always and forever such a beautiful inspiration. I am only thankful I had the chance and privilege to be able to see such creativity and love expressed through his work.
    Much love to you and your family x
    Alison

  4. kimberley goodings says:

    April lovey,I am so sorry for your loss.I know people will say time will heal all and its the last thing you want to hear,I know I didn’t but all you have to know is that your husband is guiding you and looking out for you in every way.xx

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